Friends

If you do not do enough as a friend, don't blame others for not doing enough as a friend.
Some like to use, some like to be used, some like to abuse, some like to be abused.
A friend is someone who can keep secret like Kazee and Lunatic Gal.
A friend will care his friend, but it's limited.
If a friend doesn't keep his word, ask yourself first, have you kept your word?

Everything we feel about others,
is a reflection of our own.

This year's Resolution number 2, "Be a Good Friend"...

Though i de-listed a few friends from my friend lists, and though i hurt a few friendship, but i gained few more Good Friends, which to them, i am still a good friends to them.

Thank you Luna, Thank you Kazee, Thank you Huey Shen, Thank you Paul.

My AV

I want to smile... but i can't...

I am weak... i only act tough...

They watched me grinned... but i'm crying actually for what i did...

It's not fun at all.... It's painful.............

Rubbish

I was having a good sleep... It was raining heavily...

Suddenly, i arrived to a place... i just wake up from my bed... i'm like in a port... I see smokes around... I'm in the middle of a war.

I see tanks coming with sea transport.... I tried to throw grenade at them... but too far... the range gauge bar cannot reach (range gauge bar??!!)

So i go nearer to the port... Then i see the tank aim at me... Then i jumped here and there... Hope they missed...

As i get nearer... i threw the grenade... I sinked one... I was so excited!!!!



As i turn around... another tank... from another direction aiming at me... (*gulp) and...



KABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thunder strikes... and i'm back in my room.... Sigh... i was sleeping so nice... why wake me up....





In the morning, i heard... my Astro spoilt because of the thunder....

When i got home, my streamyx cannot use....

=.= Goddamnit!

My Blog

The effect to my blogging activities after i started working:-

Bad:

1) Lazy to blog because i feel damn fucking tired.
2) Everyday is just the same. Today is just like yesterday and tomorrow is just like today. Got what to talk about?

Good:

I'm getting out of ideas to be stupid. Means, i think less and less coz normally, i just like to think a lot, and that affect me a lot... especially, my mood.


I need to get myself some activities to do. So, i'm cleaning and labelling my post effectively while deleting post that i feel... just crap, and editing some... Need some changes in my blog... I just want it to be like Lunatic's blog... So many comments... nice.

The Golden Cow

Knowingly, you joined his world... just because of him?
Knowingly, you expected the outcome of your effort... and still you tag along?

You are in denial. At least i feel so... I know what's in your mind and what you are thinking. I, too know, what attracted you in the first place.

Just because of the emptiness in his eyes...?
Just because of wanting to protect him...?
It's not all about how much effort we put in, or how much is our sacrifice...
It's not about how much we give that is matter...
It's not wrong to be a dreamer, but at least, keep some realist in you.

You are being reluctant. Inside your mind, the image of "someday" had already been created.
You are already hoping.

I hope your sacrifice will be fruitful... but if shits happened... never lose in what you believe in.

I understand you. I really do, because we born under the same star...

Monday Blue

Everything collapsed overnight and jeezz... I don't know where i wanna start from. I'm on my own again. Well, luckily there are things still going on, and things to look forward.

This month, April, i got my first Insurance test.
Next month, May, is my Birthday.
June, i got my ABE exam.

What else? About Insurance, i'm having a problem with the person who recruit me. He's quite easily offended, and hell... i hate it when he say, "I help you because you are my brother mah" My instant reaction is like pointing my middle finger. Dino, with our 10 years friendship and good mutual understanding, he got the right to say that. But not, someone who's always trying to recruit me as his agent.

Moreover, i got bad experience doing business with him and i'm considering now... Since i can use my Insurance result to join any other company... and since i preferred Hong Leong Assurance, and since i got other friend who is a HLA agent but different group... i think i will switch and say byebye.

I preferred people to tell me, "What is my benefit if i help you?"


Oh well, what i'm going to do tomorrow? I wanna organized and cleaned my blog. To make me feel something had been achieved... Oh heck, one of my friend is asking me to have a drink in a papaya farm after work at 6pm... Leave at 7pm... I guess that's cool because Beer = My Love.

Homoes are Outdated. Here's the next HOT trend!

Remember in my past post, i talked about today's trend is;

A: "My son is having a relationship with other people's son? What the fuck?"
B: "Nah, it's ok. It's the trend."

And i am expecting that tomorrow's trend will be;

A: "My son is having relationship with my daughter? What the fuck?"
B: "Nah, it's ok. It's the trend."

I heard this trend is catching up... My friend just told me similar case just now. I guess the first scenario is already outdated and had been accepted by the society since the western countries legalized Same Sex Marriage. So, the second scenario is the latest trend.

Now, let us imagine what will be the next hot trend after this?

Hmm.... I am expecting;

A: "My daughter is having relationship with my daughter? What the fuck?"
B: "Nah, it's ok. It's the trend."

Beer = My Love

Some people like liquor, some people like beer. Well, if you ask me which one i like i will say.. both but i prefer Beer than Liquor. I went to D'Joint in upper Penang Road. It's a small bar, and the DJ playing Trance, which made me in trance. I ordered two bottles of Heineken, my favourite and beloved Heineken.

The difference between Liquor and Beer to me is... Liquor like Chivas and Jack Daniel make me damn drunk and feel like dying, and it makes me vomit. Meanwhile, Beer like Heineken makes me numb and steam steam and sleepy.

In the mood of steamy steamy, i feel.... hmm.... quite fine (if i didn't overdrink) and comfortable. While driving in my car and listen to Mix.fm or Fly.fm's Indonesian slow rock song... Huwah~~!!!! Feel like flying like that.

Damn high... As i'm writing now, i already feeling high... and illogical. Yeah, fuck reality, and fuck logic, just for a night anyway.

The feeling also makes me feel like writing something romantic... Yeah.. Just Romantic.

Maybe I fell in love before...
But never... so special...
Maybe i had missed someone before...
But never... so deep...
Maybe you will never believe before...
That sincerely... I have fall?

I admit... I had melt...
I had melt inside...
You,
That I love.



I think i should go sleep now. Going for PC Fair tomorrow.

Restaurant vs Bank

A friend of mine who work in Fish & Co, asked me to join him as a kitchen helper. Well, my respond is, "No my cup of tea."

He likes to cook, well, i like money.

He then told me, "While cooking, i can cook for myself too you know? But, while you counting money, you can't keep for yourself you know?"

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