Wisdom Tooth giving me hell~~~!!!

I'm going to see dentist later... My wisdom tooth is killing me coz my flesh refuse to let it come out. I pain till dream how pain my tooth is and i can't sleep...

Went to see doctor after i woke up from my painful sleep... The doctor give me double painkiller... I guess i will need to do surgery on my wisdom tooth. My first surgery experience... My tooth >.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"
Next time, before you take your kids to see dentist... Let them watch this classic The Dentist first to scares them. It'll be fun :D

Schools

Schools are where we learn things, like English, mathematics and etc.
Schools are divided into two types; normal schools that teach academic subjects like science and geography, and polytechnic schools that teach hands-on subjects like carpenting and smithing.

Schools are important for a civilized society but at times, i condemn them for being too standardized. We all know children have different kind of talents. Some are better at music, some are better at art... But schools grade their students based only on their academical performance.

Before the industrial age, every kids learn from their parents. Example, a carpenter normally learn the skills from their father, goldsmith learn from their parents... until Industrial Age strikes and the need for employees begin. Those industrialized nations started to adapt Prussian education philosophy to cover the need. Today, almost all public schools are using Prussian style which is "to produce employees that follow orders".

Everything will have to be One answer. Everything had become too technical because of standardization. Example for technical teaching, 1+1 must be 2. Any other answer will be wrong. Let's look at creative teaching... 1+1 might equals to 4 if the 1 is a set of 2.

The subject that i condemn the MOST... Moral studies. In secondary school, i can still remember... We are to memorize all the values word by word without a mistake. Well, if you ask me, that's so stupid.

If i can change the whole system, children will be educated how to read, write and calculate, and the rest will be used to nurture their natural talents. For moral subjects, it's the best if we use religion to educate them. Well, Buddhism is quite good in educating moral values.

I heard from my friend who heard from a school principal.

"For hardworking kids who studied well in class, take good care of them. Bcoz they may be the future teachers of our school."

"For lazy kids who always sleep in class and do nothing, take better care of them. Bcoz they may be the next Lim Goh Tong of Genting Inc and make our country's economy grow."

"For cunning kids who like to cause trouble, take BEST care of them and make sure you make them like and remember you after they leave school. Bcoz they may be our next Prime Minister."

Advice for kids bout taking drugs.

I heard this from South Park...

Chef advising the kids about taking Drugs.

Chef said,

"Drugs are bad. You kids aren't suppose to take drugs. Because...........................

There are timing for everything and time for drugs and that time is College!"

He mean it's okay to take drugs in college =.= What the heck?

Gender Recognition Deficit (GRD) syndrome (Copyright reserved)

After bowling, I was walking behind Janice...

Janice turned her head, look at me awhile, then said,

"You are in deep shit. While you are walking behind me, i feel like a girl is following me."

=.=

Let me add on something... It sounds like,

"I don't feel any 'threat' from you. Feels like we are the same ( girls)"

GODDDDDDDDDD

DAAAAAAMMMNNNNNN

IIIIIITTTTTTTTT

Y got told me not long ago... "Feels like you are tomboy more than a guy"

=.=

Well, i'm 100% guy. If not 100%, also got 70 to 80% (what the heck?! what bout the other 20 to 30%? Sissy?) and 100% loves girls (well... maybe 70 to 80 per--- What the fuck =.=?) 200% loves girls! Originally GIRLs, NOT transexual (from male to female or female to male) by SURGERY.

Well... lesbians love girls too =.=" If i'm a homo, then i'm a Gay looking for Lesbian *ngek*

Bird, i know what you wanna call me -.-

P.S : Gender Recognition Disorder or GRD is a syndrome that cause someone unable to recognize whether that particular individual is male or female. GRD was created by myself. Don't copy this name unless you are ready to pay me royalty.

Malaysia has no more Hope!

I read a few blogs in DAP website.

Though i'm not so into Malaysia politics, but sometimes, i do do some thinking. If we don't do anything for now, what will be the future for the children of non-Malays? I admit, for the country to last so long until now... The government do have some quality in supressing uprising in the country. Article 153, i learnt something new. It's that law which protects the rights of Bumiputras (I'm not questioning right? Please don't post any comment questioning it. I still scare of Internal Security Act)

1. Penang Chief Minister, Koh Tsu Koon is a puppet.
2. Badawi (PM) and Najib (Deputy- PM) is in denial that the country is in deep shit now.The
   
3. Malays keep asking the government to provide this, this, this and that for free or by the expense of other races.
4. For a country to prosper... John F. Kennedy, a US president long long time ago said, "Ask not what the country can do for you, ask what you can do for the country."

Well, the law of nature, if a system fail, it must be replaced with a new system. I guess this country, Malaysia is falling on a free fall. Time will tell.

Few advice for non-Malays:

1. Get all your investment out from the country before it's too late.
2. If possible, migrate out from here if you can. Singapore is much better than this place.
3. Build business somewhere out from here. U.S and Singapore are democratic country.

Well, i think that's all... This country has no more hope!

Waiting for the Future, overlook the Present

Recently, something happened. I create a phrase for that by trying to feel deep down inside. And this is what i got;

"Waiting for the Future, overlook the Present."

As i try to perfect this phrase, i learnt a lesson from this phrase. Though many people heard the lesson, but few really understand or practise this valuable lesson.

The phrase simply means,

We all waiting and looking for what we want in the future, hoping for it to happen, waiting for it to happen. That Future may be clear or may be blur, but still it's what we want. We never realize or appreciate what we got in the Present, until we lose it.

Loosing what i got because i'm too obsessed with i want. It may worth it, it may not worth it, but i'll never regret for loosing.

And in order for me not to regret, i have to appreciate what i got now in the present, before i loose something i got... Again.

数到五答应我 Stucked to Romantica

I haven't sleep yet =.= Later need to wake up early again...

Currently listening to 数到五答应我 or Promise Me After Count to Five by Gary Cao Ge.
Arghhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So romantic~ >.< something =".=")" style="font-weight: bold;">"Can't Remind You (or Tell You Again) That I Love You." (I WANT THIS VERY VERY MUCH!) I don't whether i'm correct or not =.= I just know it's about the topic "I Love You" cannot be repeated or discussed again with the person. I don't even remember who's the singer.... Hmm... Need to ask my YY again >.<

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

OH SHIT!!!!! I REALLY GAY-ED!

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman. You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling. A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you. And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off. You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky. You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

coincidence 0.0?

Your True Love Is a Gemini

Why you'll love a Gemini: Witty and sharp, a Gemini can keep up with your fast (and ever changing) mind. You're both fun loving and free spirits. You and a Gemini can enjoy each other without expectations. Why a Gemini will love you: Not only can you keep up with a Gemini's sharp tongue, you can introduce a challenge or two... You're appetite for fun and novelty will keep a Gemini interested - at least for a bit longer than usual!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

If My Life is a Movie... Accurate for now, partly Gay-ed!

Erotic Thriller

You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you. Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you. Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

One should named R, one should name F and that will equal to R.F (RunFire)

R: "Where is B? Her dad called me."

Me: "Toilet."

Next is... *PIKABOOOOM*

=.="

Then, Y: "You purposely?"

=.="

Kanlemacaucibai! Blame me!

Then, C don't know crazy what and make herself so drunk till i had to carry her on my back here and there. I haven't carry anyone on my back for 3 years... The tiredness cause me to vomit my roti kosong and kambing *NONONO*
The other one stay in CO and find remaining drinks to drink, but still conscious...

=.="

Time bomb? Things seem to cool down, but i know something is not right...

Don't care don't care don't care!

The end...

One vomit like hell and damn drunk and sad...
One eat maggi goreng in Birdshit (a mamak place's name bcoz got many birds shit near the shop) till song song and smiling~ eheh~

=.=*

Well... I didn't feel bad for saying "Toilet" and I AM NOT ON PURPOSE!

Heard alot of comments from them (Chris, Janice, Y) but... Boh Tiao! Don't care!

=.= Me and Chris agreed... Don't care when shits come, just enjoy~

Yeah~ Just enjoy~


Sleep, sleep, sleep!

Kira vs L

Last Saturday, when to BJ with Lunee, Bird and Yun? to watch this... Ta~ Da~ Death Note. The story's about, there's a note left by Reaper in human world,

"Whoever humans name written on this note shall die~~!!!!"

The person in the left, in black, is Raito Yagami a.k.a Kira (derived from the Japanese pronouncation of the English word "Killer" and also from the Latin word for "light")!
The person in the right, in white, is L and i just found out his real name is L Lawliet *spoiler spoiler* point point point~ :D

Kira owns the Death Note and begin killing criminals. Though, it may be fine for some people, but it's still a murder crime. (Imagine 52 criminals died of heart attack all over the world suddenly =.=) Then, L with Interpol's help, begin to investigate. Then, go watch the movie. I don't wanna spoil the fun! I actually already spoilt my own fun coz i read the comic, 4 volumes before watching the movie, and i know everything before they happened =.= Now i'm waiting for Death Note 2 : The Last Name, i hope they will not make it the same coz i finished 12 volumes just few minutes ago.... I was at volume 7, and i finished it... Brain cells damaged... Lunee and Bird said " L looks like ah Bann la! whisper~but of course more handsome than Bann" =.=*

This is the actor who acted as L.


And this is what he looks like in the movie.



And this is the way he hold things, which become one of our talk topic about him... I like it~



After movie, we go eat tau hua~ Ermm... nice~ Then send Bird home, then send me home... Then, that's my Saturday DAY. More to come for night.

Emotio-attached Things

There won't be any problems in friendship if you don't care or don't get too close.
If you want to care, don't get close. If you want to get close, don't care.

I just realized, most of my good friends are those that we didn't talk much or meet much. Some get closer, and the more you care, the worst it become. And become not so happy like before dee... I don't know why i felt that way. I just know i WAS someone who need attention and care from my friends. But well, i lost the attention and care once few years back... And i just lost it again recently.

It'll be much better if i don't emotionally attached to those friends that i normally mix with, because in the end, i might be abandoned and i will be greatly depressed... And i hate the feeling of depression. It's destructive. Though i felt it yesterday night, and it lasted only two hours... I know, i will never want that feeling no matter what. It'll just bring me down.

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My previous belief;
"Meeting her is by Fate, Knowing her is by Choice, Loving her is out of my Control!"

I decided and taken new belief now;
"Meeting her is by Fate, Knowing her is by Choice, Loving her is BY my Control!"

I had a lot of disappointment in my Love life. Now it's dilemma... Sigh... Just watch and wait. I'd devoted myself a time frame, used it! I don't wanna focus on this kind of thing yet... I still got my debts to pay!!! Work work work work!!!!!!! *Tie red cloth on my forehead* HMPH!

Me

Your Birth Month is May

Unique and creative, you seek your own path in life. You love change and are able to adapt to any situation. Your soul reflects: Sweetness, joy, and a complete life. Your gemstone: Emerald Your flower: Lily of the Valley Your colors: Yellow, red, and green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

I See Myself In Her

There is this friend, CL who is very dear to me. I watched her left the scene last Saturday night. I heard her cries, i saw her emotionless face expression... I saw the other two smiling... I lose myself. What i can think of on that night, "Fuck, wrong person leaving..."

I was sad, i was mad, i was angry.

I can even think of a very childish sentence in me...

I lost myself again, seriously... For the second time in 20 days...

She reminds me of myself. It's like a reflection of the past, when i'm still young. Five years ago, because of high expectation in friendship, i screwed everything, when things wasn't the same like before. I told myself that i don't care, but i am hurt inside. When problems come again, i lost control and fucked everyone up. My friends started to walk back a few steps behind. I feel lonely after that.

What happened after that? I hurt myself. I kept myself in my room. I cut myself. I smoke cigarettes and marijuana. I suffered from depression. I felt as if the whole world no longer care and it'll will be fine or much better without me. Feeling like 'lay down and die'... giving up everything. I hurt myself JUST to find someone to care, but when care arrived, i fuck them off, trying to get more care. Well, we know, it'll never work this way. It'll only become worst.

Not until after 17 (my ex-girlfriend gave me more depression =.= luckily i start reading to find ways to curb my problems) i started to feel much better after getting control of myself. Lower my expectation from my friends and loved ones. I went for a quest to search philosophies to guide me. I became someone who MOST of the time (not all the time of course) could control my emotion with my mind. Whenever i feel angry, my mind will tell me reasons why i shouldn't be angry. Whenever i feel sad, my mind will tell me reasons why i shouldn't be sad. These were indeed a good news for me. But i become older and older as i find more and more. Lesser things could excites me until now.

Back to Saturday night, i guess i was blinded by Bias. I become one-sided while all along, i was a neutral guy. I have this feeling that something is not right, i have this feeling that there is no justice. This is all because of Bias. Yeah... my fault. And it's complicated.

My heart wants to know everything, but my mind tell me, "For what?", "What's the point?", "It no longer my business anyway."

I can't say much about the other party. They may be one-sided too. What i think which may be true, is false to them. And what they think which may be true, is false to me. We trust different people. I trust CL and Y, she trust R. I don't have anything to say since i know there is no right or wrong, true or false. It's just how we look at things.

Heh... complicated.

I don't have to care? Fun friends? Maybe if i don't care just like before, i will feel much better. Just enjoy their companionship then? Things that are emotional-attached is something we will never be able to understand. Love, Friendship, Family...

I don't know alot, and i'm too tired to know them...for now.

I will be okay soon. I got my life in deep shit, i will just change my focus on my own life rather than someone else's life. For these few days, it's the best if i kept myself in solitude. Meditate, really understand myself and control myself... I still wanna hang out with them (some will say i'm a masochist =.= i am both Sadist and Masochist!)

Need some mental and emotion rest for few days! So, find those who won't share problems with me for few days... until Saturday. ARGH!!!!!

Fuck It

"If u know it cant be have any future
Let time wash off.....
Else things will be repeating"

Now listening to 'Fuck It' by Eamon. The song is about, the singer's girlfriend cheat on him and go fuck with someone else (after listen to 'Fuck You Right Back', she fuck with his friend). In guy's version, it's sadness and anger, but girl's version, 'Fuck You Right Back'... it's "So what? I don't love you all along!"

Damn pissed off...

Well, that do make it a balance since throughout history, guys are more assholes than girls anyway. Fuck here and there. Can't differentiate themselves from human and animal. Act with their lust.

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

All my feeling is in this first verse of the song. I felt this in a not so distant past, well, in fact i still feel it now. The pain...

Sometimes, maybe it's my problem for feeling all this pain. Betrayed, Played, Used.... A lot of people told me, why keep the bad memories? Just think of the sweet memories. A lot will agree on this, but for me, the bad memories already contaminated the sweet memories. The sweet memories had already become a bad memories to me whenever i think of them. A rejection or mutual break up are fine for me, but NOT betrayal and cheating. I have to bear with that. For what guys had did, the karma will return to us, and i'm a guy, i had to bear with it. Just accept it.

Sometimes i think, i should be like Eminem;

They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit, girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her face,
I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,
Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

YES I CAN DO THAT!!!

IF...

I looks like this...

Game with Ourselves.

You are naive, but you are not innocent.
You are not smart, but you are not a fool.
The world do not revolves around you, but you are the centre of it.
You got a lot of problems, but it's you who create it.
You got choices, but you don't make decision.

You are used, but you like to use.
You are abused, but you like to abuse.
You are broken, but you like to break.

Look to your left and your right...
There are good and bad beside you.
An angel may not look like one.
A devil may not look like one as well.
One may be dark but good, the other one may be bright but evil...
It's a game of deception...

YOU...
are just playing games with yourself.

and

it's YOUR choice.