Love, Tools; My diary~

The story used to test my emotion. I just wanna see how far i have go. Well, every broke up is a sad story though there may be a good thing behind it. That's just the part 1. Part 2 i wanna write about a friend of mine. I can write all these stories because it plays a big role in my life. Although there's other things that influenced me but i don't wanna bored you guys with all those Entrepreneur stories. I may wrote them somewhere else.

As i blog and blog for so long, i felt like a DJ in Hitz or MY.fm. Telling stories, talking bout everyday life. Hmm.. Perhaps if i can't sing, i can be a DJ. Nah~ I have no interest in it. Maybe i will open a new radio channel later when i became an Entrepreneur.

I truly love the feeling of being loved, not parents love but from someone special. I like the feelings of being acconmpanied by someone special. Well, i admit that i'm a desperate fellow. After my case with a girl (you know i mean you) , i tried to find out how that love sparks was built. Vliamz said, "Spend time." But i don't think i 100% agree on that.

I tried to have dates with a few girl friends to experiment that myth. Since if that feelings were built, it's a good thing and if no feelings, still we're friends anyway. I spent time with them (i used lotsa money too =.="), have a good time with them. This goes on for quite a long time. But still, when i don't have that feeling... no matter what i do or how long i spent with them. No feeling juz means no feeling. I guess i understand why i was rejected last time, (or time spent not long enough?).

One thing i'm wondering... Girls, some of them will find you when they're sad. They need a company from someone. Well, i'd being that person for three times. My ex is the first girl. When i realized this, i felt sad and angry actually. i'm just like a tools. Well, what do i expect actually? I don't mind that they no longer need me, the tool. But at least keep me, and not throw me far far.
After going through so much, wasted my time, after they begin to move on. Then i was treated like a loser. I'm MAD~!!!

But at least i got a compliment from Dino. "Coz they know that you won't take advantage and you're a good guy. That's why you famous for that." I feel better with that. Hahahaha. Anyway, cheers~