The Real Personality

When we are young,
we do have heroes/role-model that we wanna be.
TVs, manga, cartoons...
Your father, your mother, your brother, your sister...
Or even your friends, etc.

Who we are today are products of influence,
From those people walk in and out of our life.

I changes a lot of personality.
Some by idolization, some by influence,
some by conditions and environments...

Until at a certain point,
I don't really understand my real personality,
The real person, the one looking at me from the glass of the mirror.

I changes a lot...
Trying to change, to suit others...
Trying to make others to like me,
and wanting me in their groups...

I start smoking to hurt myself during adolescent.
Then, I enjoy it,
By the way a cigarette or smoking session can make friends easier.
There are some friends that I know through smoking...
That's silly, isn't it?

There are at certain times I act without listening to my own self,
Doing things against my consent.
Doing things that deep inside me, I feel bad, but do it on purpose anyway.

Thick Face, Black Heart.
Ignoring all criticism,
Doing things without taking others into account...





I had enough.
I really need to find the true me.



But luckily, there's one part that I'm sure is my original personality...
That...


I am a talkative person and I talk a lot.