I can still joke about it after getting accused like that.

Let's see... the first thing that popped up in my mind was "What are you trying to say? What are you trying to say?"

I was speechless and totally least expect this accusation coming from my own family. I couldn't believe it.

So, "What are you trying to say" means I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My next though was, "How could you say such thing?" I was disappointed.

I didn't even want to try defend myself. It was just... Whatever and fuck it.

It's just my image has gone so bad. Even family members. Such a tragic.