Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Mood 12th September 2006

I'm too free at the moment. I'd been thinking alot of things about my future, like what i want for tonight's dinner and what will i eat for tomorrow's lunch? Hehehe. Crap thinking.

I'm too free... Really plus a little bit moody. Last week, i went to airport coz a friend of mine is leaving to UK. So i just go...

That person is my ex's friend. Actually i already got a preparation in case my ex came to the airport as well. But when i saw her, i fled and gone in 6 seconds. Why i reacted in this way? I don't know. I just felt that my mood is changing drastically when i saw her.

Anger, hatred, sadness, missing, love... Mixed up feelings =.=

To me, she's already dead. The person i knew few years back then is already dead. Now that person is just another wealthy Noble's daughter. I'm just a soldier in the battlefield who have to worry whether i'll be alive in the next day.

I feel like writing stories, but i'd become too lazy to even think with my brain, not to say about writing on a piece of paper before converting it into electronic form >.< urgh.... Who can save me from this moodiness?

Luna, where are you?
Dino, where are you? and,
Girl in red, where are you?

3 comments:

  1. Anonymous11:40 PM

    cokodok!!! im here la...dun shout sooo loud la...hehe
    ayo...i think that means that u still have feelings for her la...
    stop telling urself that u hate her & taht she is dead..just accept the fact that u still love and care for her...accept urself my bro...all that crap that u hate her and so on...but deep inside i know that u just cant loose her...deep inside some where that u hide that feeling...that true u that u r trying until now to hide...u r scared that u will be hirt again...hey suprise bro,love does sometimes bring sadness...but dun u think it is sometimes just worth it???
    come on...stay up man...or i'll come back & shove something up some where where the sun never shines!!!...

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  2. Anonymous10:57 PM

    yea cz of love bring sadness only u can know wat is happiness :D cheers
    luna pass by ~~~~~
    beware of girl in red la,, very hiong one u know :P

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  3. cz love a girl bring me sadness, i guess i will find happiness by loving a guy. Muahahahaha!!!

    Dun talk nonsense =.= Apa girl in red? I din do wrong, tak takut.

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