Resolution for Year 2009 pt.2

What I did last year?

Let me think...


January - I was supposed to leave the country but I didn't. Cambodia is in deep shit right now, so I'm glad I didn't.

February - Wasting life away. I quit SCB on this month.

March - Still wasting my life and stayed at home rotting.

April - Still rotting and wasting life away.

May - I joined Floor Depot in the beginning of the month. I also had my birthday BBQ at my home.


June - I played Paintball at PISA, you can read it here. This is the month for 27 days of bitterness which ends on July. I was having a hard time at work, I worked hard without recognition but continuous fucking from my boss, and also realized that Reality is far away from Theory.

July - I stopped blogging on this month. My mood and spirit was very down, down at its worst because...

• Working 7 days a week includes public holiday,
• little time with family,
• family complaining and asking me to change my job,
• selfish co-workers teaching me what is reality,
• uncooperative co-workers that give me problems,
• company that keep dragging my pay while fucking us everyday to perform better,
• and worst of all, feeling lonely and seriously need someone to talk to,

August - I went to Thailand, Hatyai, with my co-workers' family. It's a family trip. Nothing nasty happening during the trip, except a visit to the strip bar, where I lost 300 bahts (RM30) for tips to the strippers.

September - Clement started PGCorner. I joined and try to work things out with him. I met sweet and pink Meizhenzhu here and she has been a good online friend. She encouraged me to start blogging again too by reading all my posts since 2005. *I'm so touched~!* Read that story here.

October - Nothing much happened. I had been much more different than before.

November - Nothing much happened also. I started working part-time at Parkson Gurney.

December - The Enterprise started. I did some work, but nothing major happened. I celebrated Christmas eve and New Year eve at home. And I also contacted back my childhood friend in Ipoh.

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How much did I changed?

1. Living in Reality is Living by Myself. No matter what or how good it seems, I am always alone. I learned that no matter how good a friend is, they will abandon you anyway. So, I'm prepared for friends abandoning me no matter who they are.

2. The Value of Selfishness. You read it right, it's NOT selfLESSness but selfISHness. There's nothing wrong being selfish and thinking just about yourself. If I don't think for my own self, no one will. If I have a problem, it's just my problem anyway. No one really give a damn about my problem or your problem since we already got tons of our own problems.

3. Survival of the Fittest. Although the world has changed, but the natural law will remain the same. Only the strong and the cunning ones will survive in the real world.

4. Love Myself. If I can't love myself, I can't love others. You can read it here.

I think that's the end of it. Anyway, the conclusion of who I had become is... I had become someone who love myself more. Some might say I'd become more selfish than before. But what other people said, is totally not important to me at all. So... fuck them. I love myself.

P.S: I do sound like a fucking selfish person but "Treat people nice, people will treat you nice" concept still applies to me.