Once again, reading does helping string my mind straight. It was an old book, I'd read it before but after all the mess that I'd gone through... I get the message now. It's been a long time since a book gives me goosebumps out of enlightenment.
There are things which I want to confess.
Actually I were feeling guilty and regret because wasn't there when my nanny passed away. She did called a few nights before she left. After all these taking care of me, I just left home, came to this big city, just because of one woman. That relationship was at the midst of going down the drain.
She left me, my nanny passed away, and I was stuck here.
Sad, hurt, anger, guilt, regret, fear... That were all the things I'd been feeling.
Until one day I accepted the fact that every success and every sweetness that I'd tasted in the past had ended. And it's the time to do anything drastic at the moment. So I got myself into a stable sales job. Freedom, no quota, no stress.
I'd rest for sometime in this plateau of life. Deep inside my heart, I know that I wasn't giving up yet. I'd come too far...
I will keep this feeling and at the same time, keeping my eyes and heart wide open. My time will come again...
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