Jiwang~ (sad and down)

Just now read a friend's blog. Looks like my early blogs when i still wrote about how hurt am i, this and that this and that. I'm hurt too, now, actually >.< About

7) About that girl that i fell in love with...
- Everytime i SMS her, she replied with very short reply.
- When i try to ask her out in SMS, she stop replying.
- Didn't heard from her for quite sometime.
- If i calculate the success rate of asking her out, it's 1/20.

See July 17 post. But i just don't feel like talking about it. Just another big big failure in having a true crush on a girl.

Love hurts. But if you never taste bitter, you'll never know the taste of sweetness.

I believe in "What you give is what you receive." The One True principle of life...

Sometimes, i just feel like blaming my ex-girlfriend for her disloyalty. That makes me feel easier and better to point finger at her for my miseries and make me looks like "I'm right and she's wrong." But deep inside my heart, i know i was the fault for this tradegy to happen. Maybe if i treat her better, love her more, and be a good boyfriend... We will still be together till now? I could drive her to college? I could watch sunset with her? I could watch her smile? I could give her everything i have? I could continue to love her? Been love by her?

Last time, when that cibai bastard who stole her away betray her.... She cried, after i heard that, i cried too (err... i guess i was quite sissy last time >.<)... I just don't want her to be hurt, eventhough he wanna steal her away from me... Treat her well la BASTARD!!! YOU WAIT I RICH THAT TIME, I WILL FIND SCIENTIST TO CLONE LOTS OF YOU AND EAT YOU ONE BY ONE. I WANNA TASTE YOUR FLESH AND DRINK YOUR BLOOD. THEN LET YOU BE MY SHIT AND FLUSH DOWN THE TOILET BOWL.

KILL YOUR FUCKING WHOLE FAMILY. SELL YOUR SISTERS TO BECOME HOOKERS AND YOUR BROTHERS TO BECOME GIGOLOS.

Some people told me, it's the girl that changed her heart. I know. I still like to blame on that guy =.= If i ever see him again, i will recruit assasin kill his whole family. Eh~ I'm full of hatred >.< Amitabha amitabha amitabha~~ Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah~~

Both also cannot blame :) It's myself to be blamed. Hahahahaha~

I love her... But it pains me to see her with other guys.....
I hate her... But i still can't hide the fact that "Hate is love that lost its way" and that i still love her.
So? I chose to forget her, forget that i know this person, forget that we hold hands before, forget that we hug before, forget that we kiss before, forget that (i know what you expect =.= i'm virgin), and forget that i even loved her before. Let it disappear from my mind. Let me be free and out finding hot chicks~~~~ Lalalalalalalala~~~

I can blog all this kind of thing because i just read other sad sad blog about love =.= Muahahahaha!!! I still prefer the girl that i had crush on... but i don't know what to do now... wuwuwu... Nepspeed... you know who right?