Giving without asking something for return

I don't wish to know and understand anyone so well. Maybe i am just afraid that they might turn out to be uglier than i can tolerate? The beer, the tea, the laughter, the cock talk that we all had together... It's fun and it's happy for that moment. But what if someday, they turned their back on you?

"Giving without asking something for return." We had heard this so many times... but is this theory applicable to mankind nowadays? We don't have Buddha or Jesus anymore in such a corrupted world today.

Self-interest is the keyword.

If i were to be cold to others. But i know i might hurt or anger some people. In order not to make them sad or angry... I be nice to them because i still care? But what if i am the person who got that treatment?

"Giving without asking something for return." Another part of me, believes that it's one of the easiest way to live our life. If we are able to control how we think and feel...

Used, betrayed, forgotten... i had gone through this a few times... I faced a scenario that, i was nearly betrayed by a friend of mine. What i did was, i betrayed him before he was able to. My thinking on that moment is... It's much better if you die first, before you are given the chance to betray me.

How long can a sincerity lasts? How long can a friendship lasts?

Listing out all the good things that i had done... Though it may be simple and unimportant... Does it balance the account? Or is there unseen transactions in between? Causing the account unable to balance? Too much receiving and not enough giving?

Is Giving = Receiving? Or Giving = Receiving x10?

Used, Betrayed, Forgotten, Mocked...

If someday i died, will my deeds left a mark on this world? I bet it won't...

AFTER ALL~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

I prefer Giving the best that i am able to offered. The best to others... I know how it feels when treated badly... i know how it feels when we feel the imbalance...

The only thing i hope for... Is out of 1000 of friends that i know, there shall be one who is really sincere to me.


Another emo post =/ Will post something sweeter some day :D