Shape

She says,

"Buy pins to pin on a board to make any shapes that you desire. First, start out with 20 pins, and make a square with it. The limit line of cigarettes you can smoke is 10. So, if you smoke more than 10, and let's say 11. You will have to unpin one pin. But if you smoke less than 10, let's say 9. You can add one more pin on the board. If you lose all the pins on the board, i will not talk to you! But, after you're done pinning shapes on the board. You can give to me as my birthday present."

Supposedly, i should start blogging daily about my achievement, and take photo of it. But well, i still didn't look for the pins that i want to buy, and also the board. Even if i found it, i'm far too broke to spend any money or should i say, i don't even have any to spend.

This is Day 3 of me keeping track of how many cigarettes i smoked per day. Honestly speaking, i am amazed of how possible it is for me to kick the habit of chain smoking. Smoking is smoking, chain smoking is the usual me... 1 box or maybe more per day. Well, what's my result so far, and how many pins i had gained? Errr... The result is quite good for me, but it's not a good result and i almost unpin all the pins. Near-20 i can say... Still a few more to go and that's 20. I still left 5 pins.

My last box of cigarette with 5 sticks left was finished by 7p.m. The rest are sponsored or donated by Vliamz and Kazee while in upper Penang Road. I told myself i will not buy any for the meantime. Well, maybe i will buy a box when i go to Baling during my course trip there. My training centre and my hotel are inside the woods. Where there will be nothing but colleges and schools.

Is this cigarettes thingy a bit deal? Most will say 'No'. But actually i will say 'Yes' although sometimes i think it's a 'No'. I do feel like quitting the habit someday when my lungs or my heart hurts but the problem is, i can't see that 'someday'. I do fear of dying young. Fortunetellers said i will live only until around 50 if i will not stop it. And i am scare.

With determination and willpower, I will make a Love shape with those pins =)