A Token of Self-Recognition

Three people feel lost and trapped.

First person, an Artist. He don't mind about how much money he can earn in the future, but when he can be one of the great illustrator in Japan. He don't know, "What's next?" because when we are in school, our next step is to get a job. Now he has a job, so what's next for him?

Second person, a Student. He can't the life of taking money from his parents. He wants to earn money by his own and spent on his own. He is 21 years old right now. Maybe for most people, that's still young. But he feels useless, having to depend on his parents... and also, he don't wish to work. He wants to be rich. So he questioned, "When is that time?"

Third person, a Dreamer. He got a job. Although he don't have much money, but he can still live on his own. He got no worries what will he be in the future because he is so sure that he will be there. He just changed his job, and he knows he's learning and doing what he need to do, to get him there. So, what he's demanding for? He needs a relationship, he needs Love.

*WARNING! Contents contain over-bragging about the blogger and might disgust most readers. If you can't stand the blogger's pride. Don't read*

After years of silly aggressive approaches, years of fruitless actions, years of unnecessary risks, i guess i had let the world beat me down to my knees. My aunty called it 'Wisdom'. I can't agree more. But deep inside me, i also realized that slowly i have become weak caused by my circumstances.

Perhaps, i no longer have that strong drive to change the world like Bill Gates or Mother Theressa like i used to have. All i wished now, is merely, able to live a normal life and never had to work again at young age. I know this is quite hard and seems impossible to most people, but this is the least and my lowest dream right now. Just by being financial free alone, and not able to do anything that can bring better changes to the world... That's already a waste to my life.

Don't mind me. I'm just bragging i guess.

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I said, all i want is to live normal. And someone replied me, "You can't be this way. It all started from you. Among everyone that i'd met, you are the only one who always have that hardcore drive to be different. Maybe not all of us, but i started to be this way and think this way... It started from you."

Heh... I am flattered. What i have in mind after that? Blank. Maybe he said that just to cheer me up? But all along, i know i do share all this kind of things with him. And awhile, he just listened and no comments given. Until not long ago, i saw his progress in learning and following my pace in learning all those stuff.

Oh man... I'm so fucked. I started to brag non-stop. Somebody please stop me! =X