Chinese New Year is Over.

Chinese New Year had passed just like that. It was fast, until i realized it, it's already over now. After the holiday, after forgetting everything for temporary while spending time with my family and friends... Here i am, back on the moving pace.

I stumble.

Before holiday arrives, i told myself, "Think after Chinese New Year." And now, i'm currently lost and i have no idea what to do or what to look forward next... Bad mood bad mood!

First of all, i lost my enthusiasm in my job. I feel like telling my bosses to shut up and fuck themselves.

I'm considering working oversea, in Cambodia or Vietnam... because of the allowance paid in USD, and salary paid locally. The things i need to consider are...

• Do i have the determination to do it and stay there? I hate the unknown.
  
• Will i able to fight off the temptation over there? Casinos, clubs, brothels.
• Who will take care of home after i left? With two old folks and a secondary school girl in the house...
  

Because of those things to be considered, my Plan B is fucked. If i quit my current job or get terminated... I don't know what will be the next.

The other thing is just minor stuff, Valentine's Day is just around the corner. I'm having mood swing as usual. Since 2004, i had been setting a goal on Valentine's Day that i won't be alone for next year's Valentine's Day! But, guess what? That's a wish, not a goal. Couldn't achieve it every year *hulamak* I wanna buy 12 roses for someone i love too! And no matter how i try not to think of you, that person remains. It must be YOU and just YOU and no one else but YOU!!!

If it's Chap Goh Meh, i would like to jump into the sea and grab the orange that you throw!!! YOU!!!

*kisiao*

Think positively, i can save all my angpow money and all my gambling profits because i'm single. Maybe i can buy chocolate for myself. Yum yum~ RM2.30 for Mars chocolate bar.

I will not be a casualty of reality. In order to live and succeed in the reality... I must be Thick Face Black Heart. No more procrastination, i will sit down and think tonight. Right now, time to get ready and go to work.