What Is Love?

*followings are all about my thoughts, trying to think through about certain thing that me myself confused about. It's long and boring. Reading with discretion or DON'T READ AT ALL is advisable*


He's just trying to look for Love and Intimacy that he could not get, or maybe trying to be someone special to someone.

Looking at the way he reacts and reacted to the all the persons that he likes or loves, from the first till the present one... Trying to fulfill everything that is demanded from him, he's trying to make himself needed or wanted by the special someone.

Some said, "Because he thinks with his penis." How precise is that? I don't really agree on that. This statement could come from someone who knows nothing about Love or had already gave up on Love?

I am someone who still wondering what this magical word means, and in the meantime, i am a person who no longer put any hope on it. Perhaps i also believe that i am someone who deserve nothing from it.

Looking at the production rate of all those love film, love dramas, love novels, love animes, love mangas... I guess a lot of people likes the topic very much. Each one, has their own definition or philosophy of love. But does it comply with reality?

I know many who feel stupid viewing them. Just like my friend who classified someone who loves innocently as "Meteor Garden fellow"... Honestly, i missed the time when my friend called me that and honestly, i do like all those love topics stuff.

Recently, i downloaded Video Girl Ai... a teenager love manga. Chuckles at certain point in the story, that is what i used to be... Love innocently...

At least i loved innocently and sincerely till the age of 21, and partially, at certain moment, until now...

I remember telling someone "Love is Giving." Keep trying, put your efforts and hopes, don't give up, someday there will be happy ending, etc. I guess i'm really tired about it. I swallow back all my statements.

After feel being cheated, feel being used, feel being played, feel being left without explanations, feel being lied to, feel being told "I'm sorry" for four times...

I can only relate the feeling of Love to Pain, Hurt, Tears, Bitter, Helpless, Useless, Depression, Betrayal, Cheating, Lying, Excuse to Use...

CK told me a good story relating to Relationship. Just ask,

Guys, why do you want a girlfriend? and...
Girls, why do you want a boyfriend?

You'll have a lot of funny amusing answers popped up.

What he really tries to look for, is Intimacy...