Contradiction

Eric told me, "It all started from your broken family."


When I know my friends are going out for a movie or something,
without calling me...
I will be very pissed and emo.

When I feel what they said contradicts with each others' answer,
I will feel betrayed...
I will think that they just wanna shoo me off.


It happened a few times before...
Mostly, I will just ignore them.
And accept the way it is.
That's why, I don't really go out anymore.
And I don't really mix with those who I used to call my Friends.
I prefer those who are there for mutual benefits, e.g business associates.
Where both have benefits for staying together.


He ignored me for almost a week.
I'd became the last to know what happened.
I thought he was my best friend.
And I was the last to know.


She ignored me for almost a month.
For almost a month treated with ignorance.
I felt abandoned out of sudden.
I thought she was my best friend.
And I was ignored.


I was once told my another friend I treated important,
"A glass broken, even if put back together, the scar of the crack remains..."



Friends with Mutual Benefit are still much better.
At least I know they are here for something,
and I am there,
for something as well...