It Sucks Being Me, Big Time!

*Slap~Slap My Cheek*

An attention-seeker like me finally run out of attentions, run out dry.
Living has become about handling stress and worries on daily basis.
Learning how to psycho and hypnotize yourself into believing things are good,
and it's not bad!
So that every day could be an average day when you balance it off.


Tried to start a conversation with a cute little girl, with awesome English ascent working at the office that provide the CUTE (Computerized Unit Trusts Examination)...
It works out well in the beginning, managed to know her name, talks about her job (and how much she hates her job)
But why the hell i stopped half way!!?? Should try to befriend her and get her numbers d mah!


I see myself as a lousy friend, a lousy communicator and a lousy someone which gives lousy advice, lousy impression and etc... lousily.
I am lousy at communicating what i really mean,
I am lousy at communicating what i really need,
And at last but not least,
I am lousy at communicating what i really want.
I either try hard lousily, or just give up.
I got a big problem in communication; real life or on line.

A-ha! Am i feeling depressed right now? With such low self-esteem statement, i am qualified to join the depression group!

It sucks being me, big time! But no one can be a better me, because they are not me.

Communication! Improve! Improve!




Questions:
1. Can friendship lasts without communication for months or even years?

2. Is a purpose or a topic, a must before you open your mouth? (Geez... No wonder Kazee said i inside haywire, outside comes out also haywire.)

- The Haywire Jerry-

My Soul-Searching:

"Who is Jerry Yeow? If someone were to write about Jerry Yeow's attitude and behaviour... how shall it be?"