I Don't Know What I'm Writing =.= More About Chabos~!

I couldn't think of what to write tonight. I'd been thinking of writing about business but i scare that'll bore you? Then i feel like writing psycho serial sadistic rapist/killer story but i don't have the mood to be in my true form. Hmm... you ask what am i? I'm a vampire. I love to suck blood. Especially virgins' blood (not much left in this world now =.=) HEY! I know what some of you are thinking... Blood from the neck, not blood from other "place". Some think that i live like a vampire coz i sleep at day and wake up at night.

The reason behind this is because i feel much comfortable and peaceful during night. The night is so quiet and cooling with not lots of people and cars around. But the day is so hot and so many cars in the traffic. Crazy people driving in the streets. They think that it's safer during day for them to do their stunts on the road. At night, we got the GODDAMN FUCK ASSHOLES AND BASTARDS LAPSAP RUBBISH OF THE SOCIETY AND THE WORLD STUPID MALAYS mat rempit =.=* I think the government should create a campaign known as "Shoot the Rempits" where you get money for every rempits that you killed. One rempit, rm1. You can even borrow tanks from the military to run over them. Now that's fun! Or let the army have practical training by using those rempits as shooting target. CIBAI!!!

Oh... Hmm.. i forget what i wanna write in the first place. Now, i think i will just crap anything i have in my mind.

Nowadays, i'm wondering what the girls have in their mind. Well, they evolve from time to time. It's really hard to know what they're thinking. "Girls like bad boys" How bad is bad for that? I often heard how this guy played so many girls because he is rich? I don't blame the guy, i blame the girls for their stupidity to fell into traps at the first place. If they come and tell me how hurt they are, i'll just ask them go to hell. I got a girl friend got played before by some prince charming playboy. She cried and told me about that and i told her "It's your fault. Don't cry or i'll slap you." I don't mean to be mean but their stupidity really makes me frustrated.

I'm not a good guy, im not a bad guy. I'm the person who is in between the good side and dark side. If i have a lightsaber, i think it'll be red and blue =.= I look for perfection and romance in love. I'm a choosy person and if i fall in love for someone, i'll hang on to it. Being in love is when you are crazy for that someone. When you crazy, you're not being you and you can't think well and any other thing except that girl you're crazy for.

I'd only one girlfriend BEFORE. It's gone long long time ago. I feel quite special that time but now, when i think back... it was such a boring and tiring relationship. She had to hide from her parents about me and that makes our relationship a bit secretive, we rarely go dating coz she can't go out, i called her every night =.=" So tired of this kind of relationship. And the best part is we never had sex before. *Sayang~ Hahahaha! I never regret of getting relationship with my ex-girlfriend but i regret getting too serious with her. But if i didn't get serious, i wouldn't learnt so much today. Hmm... If last time i didn't choose her and someone else, perhaps i'll crying about that someone else now and not her. It's still the same. For now, it's very clearly that she and me are from two different world. She's a Noble (Bangsawan) and i'm just a mere soldier fighting in the battefield. A Princess and a soldier. Different hierarchy, different background, different status. Hmm... Some part of me feel glad that we broke up.

When i fell in love with that special someone... That feeling will last for very long time until i got her or i found someone who give me that same spark. I can't explain how it feels but there's no comparison for who i'll love and what type of girl that i love. Love is just love. It takes time for me to realize that i actually do really want her to be my girlfriend. I know when i think of her when i eat, sleep, play or work. I dreamt of her, i feel like calling her when i hold my phone, i feel like driving to her house and see her, i'd become crazy about her. But, well, i'm still okay even if we can't be together but i'll feel that it's such a waste for not trying it out and a waste in my life. Anyway, I'll still be happy to be a friend. Last time in school, i'd seen people so useless that they called someone a bitch after they kena rejected =.= and someone who wants that person to be godsister/godbrother bullshits after kena rejected. Why can't they just be friends? They are the nature-born jokers.

You guys must be feeling like challenging my statement about love but let me tell you, i can't explain them in words clearly but i can feel them. Maybe i couldn't expressed them well enough, so don't say that i'm wrong or something. AND, if you feel offended by some of my statement (except mat rempit stuff), i'm sorry. :D No offence!

Hmm... Where my topics goes =.=? I'm talking bout mat rempit then i'm talking bout chabOs. As you can see... I don't really know what i'm talking... Hahaha! That's all for tonight~