Emotio-attached Things

There won't be any problems in friendship if you don't care or don't get too close.
If you want to care, don't get close. If you want to get close, don't care.

I just realized, most of my good friends are those that we didn't talk much or meet much. Some get closer, and the more you care, the worst it become. And become not so happy like before dee... I don't know why i felt that way. I just know i WAS someone who need attention and care from my friends. But well, i lost the attention and care once few years back... And i just lost it again recently.

It'll be much better if i don't emotionally attached to those friends that i normally mix with, because in the end, i might be abandoned and i will be greatly depressed... And i hate the feeling of depression. It's destructive. Though i felt it yesterday night, and it lasted only two hours... I know, i will never want that feeling no matter what. It'll just bring me down.

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My previous belief;
"Meeting her is by Fate, Knowing her is by Choice, Loving her is out of my Control!"

I decided and taken new belief now;
"Meeting her is by Fate, Knowing her is by Choice, Loving her is BY my Control!"

I had a lot of disappointment in my Love life. Now it's dilemma... Sigh... Just watch and wait. I'd devoted myself a time frame, used it! I don't wanna focus on this kind of thing yet... I still got my debts to pay!!! Work work work work!!!!!!! *Tie red cloth on my forehead* HMPH!