"Audit: a methodical examination or review of a condition or situation"
I have been auditing my life. The year 2006 will gonna end soon, and i will be 21 years old next year. I'm gonna be an adult very very soon. I have been thinking, what had i done in the past 20 years? How much have i grown up? How much i had learn? I have no result to show. I had been a failure in my past 20 years. My relationship failed, my friendship failed, my studies failed, my finance failed, my family relation failed. Hm... Big failure. What more i can say?
Is this destiny? Is this fate? Is this... my choice? I think the correct answer should be, My Choice. I choose to be in this way. It could be better if i choose other way. I know what i want, i tried to work it out, but it was i who screwed up everything. I lost myself to weak self-control.
Lost to temptation, obsession, indiscipline...
I have been questioning, is there a way, not to connect emotions to something? The answer : "Get out from normal life and become a monk."
Well, i don't think that will be my decision.
After i finish auditing my life... I will reset myself, and replace my old principles. Let me be a MAN (no more sissy, i'm normal). I lack of self-control, i must be in control after the year ended.
take it easy :0
ReplyDeleteu are quite positive thinking that's y ur still no-so-weak now. atleast i feel so..
not a failure, its juz a learner..
wake up! dun fall again.
Now that you're able to point out your own weaknesses then you should be able to come up with your own solution and stop whining but do nothing.
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