The Only Everlastingness is the Everchangingness

I just read Janice's blog. I feel kinda guilty for forgetting to send her a sms wishing her "Merry Christmas" yesterday. Well, her blog isn't that hard to understand, and i can feel how she feel right now. Alone, far away from her friends and 'someone', the distance...

Being with her friends had been a habit for her, a routine... something that she already get used to it. Because of work, she had to change that routine, that habit... I know how hard it is... The feeling is just like, quitting the habit of smoking, for me.

But each and everyone of us, will face changes someday, sometime, for sure. Hoping something will never change is like, hoping you'll never grow old and die. I had faced this kind of situation for few times. I guess i'm getting more and more used to it.

When i was 15... The feeling of staying back together, go have lunch together, play basketball together...with friends for two years... Gone.

When i was 16... The feeling of hanging out for a movie, play games together in cybercafe... Gone. The feeling of hanging out in Gurney Drive, the crazy act of going Batu Feringgi just to buy some audio CD and going Bukit Mertajam for St. Anne Day with a group of friends on bike... Gone.

When i was 17... The feeling of having someone to talk to at night, the feeling of morning call, the feeling of care, the feeling of holding hands, the feeling of looking forward to meet each other... Gone.

When i was 18... The feeling of being in a group of like-minded people, the feeling of being in the club... the feeling of doing something meaningful for myself... Gone.

When i was 19... The feeling of... (i can't differentiate when i was 19 and when i was 20[now]... it seems like one year never ended.) Whatever... Gone.

When i was 20... The feeling of just 6 of us together... Clubbing together, watch movie together, go 'birdshit' together, go Genting together, go KL, Sungai Wang together, Thai Club together... About to be Gone.

I miss those were the days....

When i will be 21... Argh! Fuck the changes. I'll get a chameleon to bite me so i got its super power, the ability to change color to suit the environment. Ngek ngek~~~

Anyway, as i look back to all these things happened... I see them, as life trying to teach me lessons, to grow up. To let me know, that The Only Everlastingness is the Everchangingness. All i can do, is to go through every process faithfully, with a hope and belief that tomorrow will be better day... =)

"We can't direct the wind,
But we can adjust the sail."
-Anonymous