What is Friendship?

One of my friend had left Penang to Sabah for her career. The whole circle, got so emo for the last few days and on the last day in the airport. What about me? I don't feel anything emo except glad and happy for her that she chose to make an advancement in her career.

What i felt is, it's not like that person gonna die or something like that. I look forward to meet them again in the not so distant future. Well, it'll not be the same when your close friends left you.

I felt something missing before when Ah Keat, Stephen and Kelvin went to Ipoh and KL to work. They, especially Ah Keat gave me the real feeling of a strong bond friendship. I called Ah Keat the next day after they leave and still called him once in awhile while he's in Ipoh.

I never miss my friends after that.

I never feel anything emo when my friends leave. Is it because i don't feel any bond in friendship? Some may say i don't appreciate my friends? Maybe it's true? Maybe i feel that i can find another group of friends easily in the next minute after i lost one? I'm tired of meetings and seperation thingy. I met a lot of disappointment before, so i feel all friends are the same? Best friends, close friends, normal friends?

I wanna settle down too and be apart of a permanent circle. I'd been hopping around for sometime. From Dino and friends, to Ah Keat and friends, to Vliamz and friends, to Huey Shen and friends, to Bird and friends...

But, i do learn while hopping around. I learnt alot of different circle of friends... The best lesson i had learnt is, the Art of Don't Care. Different people got different attitude and behaviour. Forget their bad things, and appreciate their good things.

Some people felt that i am good in handling people. Honestly, i'm a rookie in that art. I messed up alot. Last Tuesday (5thDecember), i went to Queensbay to shop for belt. But i ended up buying a book in Popular bookstore, titled, "How to Win Friends and Influence People." Currently, i'm reading this now to improve my relations with other people.

I admit that i have no natural capability to deal with people especially my friends after so many troubles with friends and relationship. So, i'm learning now, back to basic.