Just Simple is Back!

Time passed, and i'm awake again. I regain my consciousness and found out... i'm in deep shit, stucked with rm4000++ debts. I recalled everything and realized, it's my poor spending uncontrollable spending habit. I got a wake up call now. I sold my future...

For the past few months, i was floating around, living in my comfort zone... only to realize now that i was in deep shit actually. I owe my college rm575 and need to be paid very soon. I got less than rm10 bucks now in my wallet and add everything up, i got less than rm100 in bank. Woah~ Great >.<

How much time i'm willing to devote?
How much sacrifice i can give?
How much risk i can take?

I asked this myself... end up... i only got one thing to tell myself... What matter is, "What I want?" I know that very well. I had forgot my dream some time ago... and lost my drive and enthusiasm. I do agree when Vliamz told me, "Dude, you changed... worst!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!

I'm laughing... At myself...

How much i spent in clubs? Maybe... roughly a thousand for the past few months?

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I calculated and draft a plan on settling my debts. Everything could be paid off by January 2008 if everything go smoothly. But i can't rely on that plan... After calculating everything, i'll have to leave with less than a hundred for one month.

I called up my friend who work in Public Bank Berhad and asked him about getting a job in the bank as a teller. He told me that he'll be my referral because we do need referral to get into banking industry. I expected rm850 for that job... After deducting, EPF and Socso... My net income could be rm720.

RM720 minus rm300 which will be used to pay up my debts... I still left rm420 to survive. I really need to find other things extra to do. I can't live with rm420 while waiting for my diploma or degree... With no savings or reserved cash, i will be dead if shits happened. I wish to pay for my own education somemore...

I'm wondering... Should i hang on and finish my ABE advanced diploma and stop? Or continue with Bachelor (Hon) Degree in Marketing? OR finish my diploma and go for my degree straight away? If i finished my advanced diploma (which i expect to finish by 2008), i only need to study degree for 2 years, but i just got my diploma, i need 3 years to get my degree...

Sigh~ Confusing?

Honestly, i don't wanna stick to the job as a Teller for so long...

And and and and and and......


Sigh... I started to worry now. Just let me remind myself by reading this poem again:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Everything will be alright soon (tying red clothes on my forehead)... GAMBATEH!!!!