Just Simple + Just Complicated = Just Confusing

I lost my self-control in the club for the very first time and losing myself emotionally for the second time in a week. All these while, my rational speaks louder than my heart, because i always wanted to be someone who use my brain to think or feel. But i lost it.

I saw something that i wished i didn't. And though i'd seen it a few times back then for couple of times, but after last Thursday, everything is so different now. I no longer being rational, my heart speaks louder and it told me, "I'm bleeding." Well, i don't have the right to feel that way but i just feel that way...

When i'm asked, "why?" I couldn't answer that. It just don't make sense for any kind of "why" to me. It should be, "why should i?" It's just complicated...

Just Simple + Just Complicated = Just Confusing.

I'm a confused kid now. I know what am i feeling now. Jealousy, been used, been played. But it doesn't make sense to me. I can hear my mind telling me, "It's none of your business." Yeah... None of my business. So why give a fuck?

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price i pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cause I'm Mr. Brightside
(extracted from The Killer - Mr Brightside lyrics)

It sounds so familiar to me.

I don't wanna know the truth.
Just let me live in lies.
Let lies be the truth.
Let the fake be real.
Fake it till i make it.
I don't care.
If it's what i want...
HANG ON!!!